I've look over my life and have accessed all that I've done
And the way it was done,
The many mistakes that I've made
With a focus on rectifying many of them,
Trying to understand why they were made in the first place,
But through it all,
I'm too changing;
I want to change for the better,
Have more wisdom to make the correct choices,
where the fortunes of my life will be restored,
Where I will desire mercy,
through all my inmost being;
I want to change the total insides of my soul,
Where all my sins will be forgiven, but not forgotten,
And with that forgiveness,
I will learn to forgive whatever grievances
I have against another;
I want to change, where I can pray for and love
Even my enemies,
Where so my covenant of love with God will also be kept;
The world is already so full of unfailing love,
because the first commandment
Has been forgotten;
I'm too changing my ways of thinking,
Trying to remember to be thankful
and cherish every minute of each day,
When mine and my love ones life is spared;
I want to change how so very angry and upset I usually get
when little things don't go my way,
When obviously things have gone my way,
Because I've been blessed
So many times;
I'm too changing, trying so very hard
To enjoy the moments,
That has become even more special to me,
Due to all my many blessings
And contributions I've received;
I'm changing my way of rejoicing,
To appreciate the things
I take for granted,
To change and use the power I have within me
To help others in the purest way,
Working on changing my grammar to be gracious
in a more presentable and content way,
Where I won't have to be embarrassed later;
I'm changing to try and show more of my good side
And not allow the worst to come out of me,
I want to change my attitude on an accomplishment,
To a more satisfied endeavor;
I'm too changing to a less impatient individual,
Taking more time to appreciate all
That is within my view,
Changing to be more earnest and repent of all my sins;
I'm too changing and
I'm almost there.
Karen's Story: Cancer Survivor. What a difference a diagnose could make.
When I was diagnosed with Breast cancer a few years ago, I reacted like most; the first thing came to mind was a death sentence. However, I found out later it was truly an awakening for me; even after being diagnosed with colon cancer a few years later, and still here to tell about them both. I began questioning God. Why would he do this to me? What had I done so wrong in life to have this placed upon me? But instead of bemoaning my fate, I decided to look for the positive side of it. There has to be a reason for it all.
I also realized that I was about to face a new beginning, new hope, do and see more with a whole new prospective on life. When I thought of the gift of life that I was given, I knew that I will develop and gain strength from all my experiences.
Even with all the current complications I now have to live with, and all the struggles I've dealt with, my entire life, I still feel truly blessed. For a while, I was unhappy with how I looked after my surgery and the pain I had to endure each day, but I decided to snap out of it. I thought about the individuals that are no longer among us. I also realize that there will always be someone worse off than I am. I reminded myself, I still have my life and who am I to complain. During my head-on-collisions with cancer, writing became therapy for me. I began to write poems that dealt with my feelings and life itself. One day I took all those poems and placed them into book form to share with others. I was blessed enough to have that book published and it's called "True Simple Poems of Life, Faith and Survival". I'm hoping that anyone who has the opportunity to read my poems get out of them, what I placed in all of them.
My poems are from the heart, as real as any could ever be. With the words and phrases of each poem of statement, I wish to make a positive impact on others similarly afflicted with tragedy and life threatening conditions. I hope it gives them the strength to embrace life in a whole new way. I never anticipated becoming a writer, I just became one. I truly believe when you survive a horrific tragedy or a horrible disease as cancer, it's for a reason, you have a purpose and I want to live to find out exactly what that is for me. The experiences I've had to endure and the strength I developed from it all, are what gave me insight to form the words of my poems. I recently had another inspirational children's book published and I'm working on my third. I would have never become a writer, producing inspirational stories, if I had not gone through all that I did.
I'm a true example that you can survive any cancer not once, but twice, providing you catch it in time. I'm not saying that it will all be easy, but you must have faith and allow that faith to direct your path. Many will come to you with varied words, many will pray for you, in hopes to make you feel better, but you and you alone will have to deal with the everyday harshness of it all, but that makes you that much stronger, and that way you will continue to be a cancer patient, not a victim.
Karen Rice/x2 cancer Survivor
Karen't site: www.karensfaithandsurvivor77.shutterfly.com
"When I first saw you"
by Karen Rice. Dedicated to my first grandchild/Madison
You were a breath of fresh air, the freshness that I’ve
yearn, for a long time.
You are the seed and image from my first born
And when I first laid eyes on you,
A spirit was captured and I immediately loved you,
You brought back the meaning of life again within me,
I knew I had a purpose through my near death experiences,
One was to be here and near you;
And when I’m holding you looking into your smiling eyes,
I’m reminded so much of how I know
there is a God, you are a blessing to us all,
When I first laid eyes on you, I immediately loved you.
Throughout your lifetime,
I will always be here to help you fight your battles,
Right along side your mother,
No matter what the situation may be;
Our hands will be in God's hands and he will show us the way;
When I first saw you, I immediately loved you.
When you open your mouth at trouble times,
Not able to form the right words,
Your mother will be there to form them for you,
And I won't be too far behind,
We love you and will do our best always to protect you alone the way,
And with God's grace, we will do it abundantly;
When I first saw you, I loved you immediately.
We will empathize with you through all your ups and downs,
You are our gift, from our heavenly father,
We knew that from the very beginning,
And when we smile with you; we're smiling with an Angel,
When we laid eyes on you,
We immediately loved you;
When I first saw you, you became another beginning for me,
I survived it all, just for you,
And when you are in my presence,
You make my life complete,
Because you are the seed and the image of my first born;
When I first laid eyes on you,
I loved you immediately.
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